Is this part of the story of the beginning history of Narcotics Anonymous (NA)?
SOLACE FOR CONFUSION
Obviously, the dilemma of the wanderer from faith is that of profound confusion. He thinks himself lost to the comfort of any conviction at all. He cannot attain in even a small degree the assurance of the believer, the agnostic, or the atheist. He is the bewildered one.
— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 28
The concept of God was one that I struggled with during my early years of sobriety. The images that came to me, conjured from my past, were heavy with fear, rejection and condemnation. Then I heard my friend Ed’s image of a Higher Power: As a boy he had been allowed a litter of puppies, providedthat he assume responsibility for their care. Each morning he would find the unavoidable “byproducts”of the puppies on the kitchen floor. Despite frustration, Ed said he couldn’t get angry because “that’s the nature of puppies.” Ed felt that God viewed our defects and shortcomings with a similar understanding and warmth. I’ve often found solace from my personal confusion in Ed’s calming concept of God.
The other day when I was on my Friedrich Nietzsche kick and did the Google search for “where does the ‘God is dead’ quote by Nietzsche come from,” I had emailed a fellow member of the academic community and asked for some of his recommendations of readings by Nietzsche. I am referring to my post on September 30, 2019, titled “Friedrich Nietzsche and his ‘God is dead’ Quote.”
My academic advisor replied that a few of his suggested reads by Nietzsche are On the Genealogy of Morals and Thus Spake Zarathustra(the link opens in a new tab). I figured Nietzsche would be a great academic add to my collection of books, so I ordered On the Genealogy of Morals through Amazon. It has since arrived. It turned out to be a stroke of luck that the paperback edition I ordered actually contained two works: On the Genealogy of Morals and Ecce Homo(the link opens in a new tab), which you can find through Amazon.